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Eyes to See

I’ve seen the beauty of a new morning, and the depravity that comes with the night. I’ve seen the harsh reality that light exposes in a situation, and I’ve seen the relief of innocence that is protected in the dark. I’ve seen astounding views that show the beauty of Creation and the good in the world, and I’ve seen astounding views that show the evil man is capable of in a dying world. I’ve seen people who inspire, and I’ve seen them do what was previously impossible. I’ve seen people lose their spirits, and I’ve seen them slowly deteriorate under the weight of failure. I’ve seen people being encouraged and the moments of their transformation. I’ve seen dreams die and hearts turn hard. In my mind’s eye I’ve seen things that will never happen, alternate realities where the past happened differently, and dreams that I’m afraid to see come true. All these things that I’ve seen amount to nothing much more than images that come and go, though some are seared into my memory. But that can’t be it. There must be a reason for seeing beyond simply taking in information. And I’m afraid I don’t have the tools to do much more than just see.

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Coming Home

My friend described my past summer as a “vision quest,” a Native American tradition of sending out the youth in pursuit of some sort of revelation. While somewhat accurate, it’s missing the key element, which is that God aspect that never seems to let me go (thank God): I went in search of myself, but I came back with a revelation of God. It’s interesting, but the more I look to myself and look for myself and try to find the meaning of my life and how I relate to people, the more depressing life becomes. Perhaps I’m alone in this, but I see the gifts I have, I see the opportunities I’ve been given, yet I cannot help but feel like a constant failure. My lack of wisdom in certain situations, the evil that I always fall back into for the sake of not having to fight against it anymore, are only a few of the many elements that I see in myself that make me hopeless. I can’t do it, and what’s worse, I can’t do it without God.
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Free

There’s no such thing as truly free.
At least not what I’ve seen.
Because as free as you can be to do what you please,
but to say different? “Girl, please,
sit yourself down and let your words freeze
Before they do any damage to the things we’ve acklowledged
To be right.
Or are you scared to let those who are oppressed
Walk firmly in the light?”  Continue reading

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A Speech that will Never be Spoken

The inspiration came to me when I saw an advertisement for a quickly approaching TEDx talk. I looked at the line-up for speakers – extremely impressive, all of them. Each of them really making something of themselves and putting a huge footprint in the wave of social history. All of them started something, all of them are young, and all of them are “inspiring.” So then I thought, how funny would it be if I was there, what would I say to an audience like that, being surrounded by other speakers like that?

This is what came out of that:  Continue reading

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It’s a Lonely World

One of my dearest friends, who I haven’t seen in over a year, came to visit me this weekend. I always smile when he comes to mind, with his sarcastic charm, genuine criticism of humanity and society in general, as well as his mind-blowing intelligence and witticisms, it’s common for me to laugh whenever he comes to mind. Or, fall into a deep state of thought, depending on which memory takes my attention. But I always had this idea of him that he was beyond me. His existence as a human being was always so separate, his thoughts so unpredictable, that I never really felt like I could really relate to him. That never hindered me from loving him as I do. But today, he told me his thoughts, and my heart swelled with emotion for him. Mostly because I knew I couldn’t do, or say, anything to make it better.  Continue reading

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Hooold your horses…

… ’cause things got real deep real quick. Not that I don’t like deep, it’s just not my style. Or wasn’t my style. I honestly don’t know much anymore.

I used to have pride in the fact that I knew myself pretty well. Not that it encouraged me to change what I didn’t like about myself or my character, but that I simply knew my faults and weaknesses right next to my strengths and talents. Once upon a time I knew myself. Continue reading

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The Story of Job

The book of Job tells the story of a bet between God and Satan. Satan bet that he could make Job curse God for the bad things happening to him, and God let it happen. In the end, Job does not curse God, despite losing his family, his wealth, and all social reputation. In return for his faithfulness, God blessed Job two-fold. It is a story often used to either to encourage us with, “hey, at least your life isn’t as bad as Job’s. And in the end, he is rewarded! So, chin up, buttercup!” or it is used to show how God uses all things to work out for His glory, and for our gain. At a Bible study with my friends a couple weeks back, we remembered this story and used it to show how much God trusts us. Even in the face of pure evil, God’s overwhelming love covers us, and trusts us to keep the faith – and this was even before Jesus! However, upon finishing yet another of Ted Dekker’s novels, Heaven’s Wager, I’ve begun to think about the story in a different way.

After all, what was so great about Job?

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Purpose

Working, being useful, is human nature. Psychological studies have shown that in cases where adults lose employment, they often get depressed not simply because of the weight of responsibility (especially in a familial situation), but also because of a certain loss of humanity. Continue reading

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