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Seeing Yourself in the Mirror

At some point or another, we’ve all had that one really good friend say to your face how horrible you are as a person. While we may not take it well, it’s things that we have to hear. Because those are the things we may ignore when we look at ourselves. On the flipside, that same really good friend sometimes tells you to your face what an amazing person you are. The reaction to this may also be negative, because we may choose not to see those traits, and instead focus on the flaws.

But what God does, what God did, is to give you the ability to look into the mirror yourself with open eyes, seeing both good and bad, both holy and evil. But it’s not right to take shame and self-pity from the bad, or pride and self-gratification from the good. All must be taken with humility: all good things come from God, and He loves us despite the bad. He wants to bring out of us the good, and He came to save us from the bad. He is, Himself, the mirror into which we look, and when we open our eyes, we see hope. Hope of who we are, and who we are to be, in Christ Jesus.

Hope and humility – the two keys necessary to continue looking into His face despite ourselves. To continue searching for Heaven.

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Cross-shaped

Last week was hard. The series of events broke me. And it was only at the end of it all that I realized that God was there during all of it, leading me slowly back to Him.

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A Small Revelation

A little something from my journal that I felt led to share:

I need to stop being so selfish; I need to stop acting like a baby. Always thinking about my faults and my flaws and my setbacks and my demons. Jesus paid the price for me – I’m taken care of. That’s why I’m to love him first then others, then myself. For in loving God and others I love myself. Serving God and others is using the gifts God gave me in that I show grace and mercy to myself by allowing myself to take hold of the gifts from God for the sake of others.

I have flaws; a no-brainer. Self-help is not Christianity. Being a follower of Jesus means putting yourself behind you, and taking a step of faith forward towards Jesus. We are no longer enslaved to ourselves because Jesus paid the price for us. He saved us, pinned each and every sin on the cross – I am free.

The only way to claim it is to believe it. The only way to believe it is to act on it. Faith without works is dead.

Walk with Jesus. Listen to Jesus. Let the Spirit speak, shine, and love through me. That is what I have to do.

No, it’s not as easy as that. There is an enemy. But I have hope – we have the victory. All I have to do is keep standing up, in awe of the one who gave it all so that I may have life and life more abundantly. For in Him we are more than conquerors: we are children of God.

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Defined by daughtership. Claimed by the One who paid the price to love those who do not love Him. To give us the chance to walk with Him in intimacy with the Father: a life that is dictated by the will of the Father, yet fueled with a love that never grows weak. Led by a promise, protected by an oath, secured in a sacrifice, and assured by the victory: over death, sin, separation from God. And all for the sake of being joined with God, to be called His daughter, heir to the promise and powerful over His kingdom. For when I was reborn, and even now, He says to me, You are My daughter. I love you, and I am proud of you.

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Transformation

I must have spoken about this before, as it has been a constant theme in my young life, but it is very true that my greatest fear in life is failure. I’m creeped out by spiders and I would prefer not to be at gunpoint, but failure itself is an umbrella under which everything else that is worth avoiding hides. As long as I can avoid failure, I can avoid all other unpleasantness, such as losing friends or disappointing my mother or getting into life-or-death situations. The only problem with this being my biggest fear is my huge aptitude for failure.   Continue reading

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God is… Relentless

Due to my stubbornness, I have been running from God for a very long time. Today, I learned that God has been running after me.

The feeling has been building since the beginning of the semester. It was the end of a very trying period, and my faith was shaky, to say the least. And so when I entered this semester thinking that it would be the same as last semester, I was very, very disappointed. Everything was harder, messier, crazier; my friends were more distant, my initiative was gone, and worst of all, I couldn’t hear Jesus. Of course, there were good days where I would see Him, and bad days where all I could see was myself. But today God brought everything together and pointed me down the path He has for me. And as much as I may try to run, I remember that that was exactly what I had asked for.  Continue reading

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Coming Home

My friend described my past summer as a “vision quest,” a Native American tradition of sending out the youth in pursuit of some sort of revelation. While somewhat accurate, it’s missing the key element, which is that God aspect that never seems to let me go (thank God): I went in search of myself, but I came back with a revelation of God. It’s interesting, but the more I look to myself and look for myself and try to find the meaning of my life and how I relate to people, the more depressing life becomes. Perhaps I’m alone in this, but I see the gifts I have, I see the opportunities I’ve been given, yet I cannot help but feel like a constant failure. My lack of wisdom in certain situations, the evil that I always fall back into for the sake of not having to fight against it anymore, are only a few of the many elements that I see in myself that make me hopeless. I can’t do it, and what’s worse, I can’t do it without God.
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hey God

hey God, it’s been a long time.

it’s been a long while since i’ve left myself idle

not to pursue the devil’s wiles

but just to speak to you.  Continue reading

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Words

“Swearing is just a societal construct,” he told me.
“All it does is put words in categories.
Aligning diction with propriety
is just another mode of censoring
the forms I use in expressing
my thoughts.
Isn’t this what we’ve been taught?
That our freedom of speech cannot be bought
or cast aside because it’s ‘morally wrong.’
Besides,” he finished with a shrug.
“They’re just words. Why should I give a flying firetruck?”  Continue reading

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3 Reasons Why You Should Never Put Yourself Down

1) First and foremost: you are God’s precious son or daughter. He paid the ultimate price for you, and thinks you’re worth His love. So then who are you to think less of yourself? You neither created yourself nor can save yourself, and there is nothing you can do to separate yourself from God’s love. Someone like that must be pretty darn awesome 😉  Continue reading

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