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Faith within Failure

God didn’t save me. So what do I do with that? I can’t very well blame Him for where I put myself. It was all my fault – I didn’t do enough, and I failed.

But I prayed, I trusted Him. What good is a God who lets something important to me slip through my fingers?  Continue reading

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The One Story I Cannot Tell

My dear friend,

You know how much I love to share my stories with you, and you know if something this big has happened, something so beautiful that it can only be from God, you know how much I’d want you to know about it too. But this time, I’m sorry, but this is one story I cannot tell. You see, I’m afraid that if I speak it out loud, it’ll lose it’s beauty.   Continue reading

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It’s okay to not be okay

There’s one thing that people see as a huge flaw in the church or in Christian community as a whole, that being how it feels so fake.

Because everything, and everyone, has to be alright. There is no room for problems – God’s love casts out all sin. There is no room for being disheartened – we delight in our infirmities. There is no room for loneliness – God promised that He will never leave us nor forsake us. And God forbid if you’re mad at Him – who are you to question what God does in your life? Remember – all things work together for good. Yes, God is the answer to every problem, but that shouldn’t be a reason to ignore that problems exist.
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Free

There’s no such thing as truly free.
At least not what I’ve seen.
Because as free as you can be to do what you please,
but to say different? “Girl, please,
sit yourself down and let your words freeze
Before they do any damage to the things we’ve acklowledged
To be right.
Or are you scared to let those who are oppressed
Walk firmly in the light?”  Continue reading

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A Slice of Humble Pie

“Rejection is a good thing – it reminds us we’re not perfect.” A friend of mine said that to me only hours before I received a rejection that I was convinced would never happen. When I remembered that, I smiled sadly: yet another lesson in humility where I thought pride wasn’t an issue.

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Jesus Feeds the 5000 – A Journey (Pt. 1)

It was one of the passages we discussed during the Bible study I attended one night. A familiar story, one that I could probably recite in my sleep. I thought it curious that our leader would choose what I thought of as “children’s stories,” but then she addressed them in a very interesting light. “Meditate on the passage, imagining as though you were there in the story,” she said. “Whether you relate more with Jesus, or the disciples, or anyone else mentioned, try to see what they were seeing. Let the Spirit show you something new.” Now, I’m quite an imaginative person, so I gladly welcomed the imagination exercise. What I didn’t expect was to receive a revelation that would change the way I saw the story forever, and it’s one that I would like to share with you. 

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Called – A Testimony, A Poem

(This is meant as spoken word, but until I get the courage to actually perform it, it’ll remain in text. Perhaps one day, but it’s something I’d like to share.)

Father God, I stand before you in the midst of my inadequacy,
A breathing contradiction, the battle within me the only consistency.
I know You have paid the price for me, I know I am free,
Yet still I sit with these chains draped over me. Continue reading

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Christmas in San Francisco…

“…there’s no place quite so dear. It’s the closest thing to Heaven! How I wish that you were here…” Sentimental, subtly appropriate, and unable to get out of my head as I flew into SFO. Home for the holidays. Finally.

I couldn’t stop smiling as I drove home. All these places that I knew were familiar seemed so new to me. I just realized that I never truly believed this day would come, when I would leave all my books and notes back at school and come home just to be someone’s child, someone’s sister, someone’s friend. Not someone’s student (albeit I’m trying to become someone’s employee… but that’s a different story). Still, with everything God has shown me over the past semester, I’ve made it a goal to not just sleep for the entire 2 weeks that I’m separated from my college campus. No, I want this to be a Christmas that defines me, one that I can look back to as the time when I truly began to find who I am in God. Continue reading

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It’s a Lonely World

One of my dearest friends, who I haven’t seen in over a year, came to visit me this weekend. I always smile when he comes to mind, with his sarcastic charm, genuine criticism of humanity and society in general, as well as his mind-blowing intelligence and witticisms, it’s common for me to laugh whenever he comes to mind. Or, fall into a deep state of thought, depending on which memory takes my attention. But I always had this idea of him that he was beyond me. His existence as a human being was always so separate, his thoughts so unpredictable, that I never really felt like I could really relate to him. That never hindered me from loving him as I do. But today, he told me his thoughts, and my heart swelled with emotion for him. Mostly because I knew I couldn’t do, or say, anything to make it better.  Continue reading

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Faith As Small As a Mustard Seed

It was the most beautiful show of faith that I had ever seen. Continue reading

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