It might have been because the day is gorgeous today. Even at 9AM when I was walking to church, the sun was high and warm, and the surroundings were just… lovely.
It might have been because of the sermon today. I’ve been praying for God to give me a love for His word, and the message talked all about how precious and powerful and wonderfully good the Word is. The resonance of truth really stuck with me as I began my walk back to campus.
I do believe it was because I felt God told me to slow down. Just on my way back home I was thinking about all the things I should do, and it was if His hand fell onto my shoulder and just, halted me. I looked around and noticed anew how beautiful the day was. To my left was a bench in the sunshine, and I decided to sit, and just be. Continue reading
“I don’t like reading. I prefer watching the movies.” Probably one of the most unfortunate things I’ve ever been close enough to hear. I’ve heard it several times, and every time it pains me in a way that I couldn’t truly describe. At first I thought it was just the sadness that comes from someone saying that your favorite pastime is not worth much to them, and at that moment you suddenly feel ostracized and alone and you react by either defending the integrity of a good read or simply shrugging it off and moving on. But after reading a beautifully penned story by one of the students in my Advanced Fiction Workshop, I realized that it’s not the pain of finding yourself in the minority, but rather the pain from seeing someone, knowing someone, who will never understand the beauty of a masterpiece painted with words. Continue reading
I recently had an odd conversation with myself, one that revolved around why I was a Christian. It stems from my recent search for who I am, for who God is in my life, and all that kind of existentialist crap that I thought I’d never have to get myself into. Or rather, that I hoped I’d never have to get myself into. Yet it’s a hard question to avoid, especially as a sophomore in college not yet quite sure which direction her life is turning and yet ever so scared of missing a good turn. But that’s a tangent. Continue reading
… ’cause things got real deep real quick. Not that I don’t like deep, it’s just not my style. Or wasn’t my style. I honestly don’t know much anymore.
I used to have pride in the fact that I knew myself pretty well. Not that it encouraged me to change what I didn’t like about myself or my character, but that I simply knew my faults and weaknesses right next to my strengths and talents. Once upon a time I knew myself. Continue reading
The book of Job tells the story of a bet between God and Satan. Satan bet that he could make Job curse God for the bad things happening to him, and God let it happen. In the end, Job does not curse God, despite losing his family, his wealth, and all social reputation. In return for his faithfulness, God blessed Job two-fold. It is a story often used to either to encourage us with, “hey, at least your life isn’t as bad as Job’s. And in the end, he is rewarded! So, chin up, buttercup!” or it is used to show how God uses all things to work out for His glory, and for our gain. At a Bible study with my friends a couple weeks back, we remembered this story and used it to show how much God trusts us. Even in the face of pure evil, God’s overwhelming love covers us, and trusts us to keep the faith – and this was even before Jesus! However, upon finishing yet another of Ted Dekker’s novels, Heaven’s Wager, I’ve begun to think about the story in a different way.
After all, what was so great about Job?
Have you ever stopped and pondered on a decision? Even one as mundane as whether you would get up immediately with your alarm or hit the snooze? If you got up, would you go get breakfast immediately or take a shower? If you stayed in bed, would you hit the snooze yet again or finally haul your sore limbs up from under the warm covers? I used to think that way, once upon a time, and then a book my mother got for me, Blink of an Eye by Ted Dekker, brought up the thought process again. In fact, it brought up several thought processes, one of the most prominent being my future. Continue reading