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Changes

Life has moved at a pace I could not have foreseen over the past few months since I last put thoughts to screen. It’s scary in some regards, but I’m filled with hope. I know that God is with me, and I feel as though He wants me to chronicle my journey through this time; I feel as though I need to share my testimony. I can’t stay in the dark. I need to be in the light so that God can do a good work in me.

To dedicate this new chapter in my life, I’m starting a new blog: hernameispeace.wordpress.com. If you’ve heard my thoughts before and now want to hear more, I’d love for you to follow. Your encouragement would be invaluable.

Because very soon, I’m going to be a mother.

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Shock #tbt

It’s been a while since I’ve written, and while I know that no apology is necessary, I almost feel as though it’s compulsory to give an excuse for my absence. I don’t yet have the words for it, but I will do my best to try. Later.

In the interim, I stumbled across a short musing I had written early last semester. It’s wordy and written in a voice that I no doubt integrated from a book I was reading at the time, but it’s true nonetheless. That was a time that I quite enjoyed writing down what was going on with me. It is probably an exercise that had kept me sane back then. I know this because the throwback was enough to make me return here, as I’ve been trying to make myself do for the past few months. Perhaps that’s an indication that God has something to do with this – plus, it’s Thursday, the official day of the week for pensive throwbacks.  Continue reading

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God is… Relentless

Due to my stubbornness, I have been running from God for a very long time. Today, I learned that God has been running after me.

The feeling has been building since the beginning of the semester. It was the end of a very trying period, and my faith was shaky, to say the least. And so when I entered this semester thinking that it would be the same as last semester, I was very, very disappointed. Everything was harder, messier, crazier; my friends were more distant, my initiative was gone, and worst of all, I couldn’t hear Jesus. Of course, there were good days where I would see Him, and bad days where all I could see was myself. But today God brought everything together and pointed me down the path He has for me. And as much as I may try to run, I remember that that was exactly what I had asked for.  Continue reading

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Coming Home

My friend described my past summer as a “vision quest,” a Native American tradition of sending out the youth in pursuit of some sort of revelation. While somewhat accurate, it’s missing the key element, which is that God aspect that never seems to let me go (thank God): I went in search of myself, but I came back with a revelation of God. It’s interesting, but the more I look to myself and look for myself and try to find the meaning of my life and how I relate to people, the more depressing life becomes. Perhaps I’m alone in this, but I see the gifts I have, I see the opportunities I’ve been given, yet I cannot help but feel like a constant failure. My lack of wisdom in certain situations, the evil that I always fall back into for the sake of not having to fight against it anymore, are only a few of the many elements that I see in myself that make me hopeless. I can’t do it, and what’s worse, I can’t do it without God.
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Double Major

“I’m double majoring” is a phrase that gets automatic raised eyebrows which may be either impressed or worried, depending on the student in question. As I’m going to MIT, the difference isn’t necessarily because of me but rather depending where I am. If I’m at home or with my friends and the words slip out, I get the frown or raised eyebrows (depending on the person) of worry or surprise. If I’m talking to random people it’s often the raised eyebrows that show they’re impressed, or sometimes that they’re confused. Though that may be because in English (as opposed to MIT talk) my double major is quite long.

“What are you double majoring in?”

The answer for MIT kids: “2 and 21W.” Response: concern and/or surprise.

For everyone else: “Mechanical Engineering with a focus in Nanotechnology and Manufacturing, and Writing primarily focused in Creative Writing.” Yeah. I get the confused face a lot.  Continue reading

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Status update

I’ve never had stitches before – I’ve never been so accident prone either. But for the past two days, for some reason, I seem to be going after my left hand. See, it’s not easy being ME (Mechanical Engineer… it’s a pun – oh nevermind.)

But yeah, since one of my fingers is less than functional at the moment (I’ll spare you the details of how it happened), I’m not apt to write too much today. Yes, it’s possible to type with only one finger out of commission, but I’m not one who enjoys putting my injured extensions in the way of further harm. I just thank God it happened to my left hand and not my right.

Anyhoo, I’m off to yet another conference, and so should come back with a lot of great stories. But til then, have a wonderful Easter, and happy Good Friday! 🙂

(Is wishing people a happy Good Friday a thing?)

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