Category Archives: *Rage Face*

Ever evasive. Never loyal. Coming and going and leaving before much gets done. Deceptive – perhaps this is the time when all will be alright. But it will never be faithful. It will always leave my mind to wander; it will never be tamed. Yet still I’m grateful for when it comes, and I look forward to when I will see it again.

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A Proclamation

I made a decision a friend¬†of mine didn’t approve of. That in itself was fine, but he took it one step further, quoting to me Proverbs 14:12 – “There is a way that seems right to a man, But its end is the way of death.” I tried to shrug it off, but couldn’t. I hold Proverbs in high esteem, and I’m searching for wisdom. The words literally made me stop thinking, going back and forth over the past few days. Was it not enough that I saw God in my choice? That there was good fruit? How would I know that, while it looks good, anything I do is not taking me towards death?

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Forced to Write

One of the downsides to choosing to double major with Creative Writing so late, is the requirements. After taking the amazing advanced writing classes that inspired me to pursue it even more, I now have to take the introduction classes. It’s these classes, or this class in particular, where I find the reason why so many people knock on MIT’s writing program. Today marks the day that I can no longer stand up for my department.¬† Continue reading

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The Choice That Reeks Suspiciously of Failure

I didn’t do what MIT students are supposed to do. At 3AM this morning, when I saw that, despite all of my foresight and planning and scheduling, I was unable to finish my assignment by 9AM this morning, simply because I didn’t understand what was going on. Instead of looking things up and searching for the answers in my notes and my textbooks and being a “real MIT student” who says, “I don’t need sleep. I need an A,” I said to myself, “I can’t do this. I need sleep.” And I’m very much afraid that I’m going to look back on this missed assignment and cry my eyes out.

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When the unthinkable happens: there’s a post for that

This post, that is. And I’d like to apologize in advance for any unfortunates who come across this post, as it was written right after the unveiling of a test score that I had been waiting for ever so religiously. The reason why I’m mad, dear unfortunate reader, is because I can’t possibly understand how, or why, this happened.

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